Now That's Awkward

Have you ever been in an awkward situation? Don't answer this obvious question. Yesterday I ran into a friend who I kind of sort of have feelings for. We were good friends and hung out all the time until he pretty much said he didn't want a relationship at the moment. I mean...I, myself, do not want a relationship either, but at the time, I was going to consider one only if it was with him. Lame? I know. Anyways, after him saying that he didn't want to deal with a relationship, I stopped hanging with him as much and stopped texting him cause I needed to get over my emotions. When I ran into him yesterday, things were awkward and there was really nothing to talk about. We used to argue and talk about everything and anything and we both did not have a problem keeping the conversation going, but now, it is weird. We just said hi, you look well, and I should go.

I told this to my girl friend and guy friend and they said the same thing. "It's only awkward if you make it awkward." Umm....Let's be honest! Awkward is awkward. You not making it awkward is just you not showing it and ignoring the damn elephant in the room. You making it awkward is acknowledging the elephant in the room but do not want to deal with it so you let this weird aura just linger around.

What should I have done to get rid of this awkward situation? Nothing. There is nothing I could do. I mean, it is awkward because I am changing for the better (for myself). If I went back to doing what I used to do with him, I would be back to square one and just bark at a tree that will never bear fruit. If I continue what I am doing now, it will continue to be awkward.

The things that irk me are one, there is nothing I can do about things being awkward and two, people saying that it isn't awkward if you don't make it awkward. Awkward is like energy. You cannot make or destroy it. It is there whether you like it or not. Instead of saying that stupid cliche, people should say "well, deal with it or do something about it." Ignoring the situation is not going to make things less awkward. Man or woman up and deal with it! Well....now.....this is awkward isn't it?