My Eating Disorder

Okay before anyone gets any ideas, I really do not have an eating dis....well....I do have a tendency to eat a lot. I cannot say no to certain foods even when I am full. So....I guess I do have some sort of food obsession. 

This is such a problem because no matter how much I work out, I seem to gain weight. I put pictures up of Victoria Secret models and hot men to motivate me to stop eating after six, but late night snacks are the best.  For example, I felt so fat that I went to Rite Aid and got a box of Entenmann's instead of working out. Well....I guess it's because I just got mother nature's present. 

Sweets: I love them and cannot get enough of them. Dessert is always first when it comes to me. There used to be a time when I rather eat a slice of cake instead of a proper meal. I bake cookies just so I do not eat them because I do not eat the things I bake. I just baked banana muffins and I have not been tempted to eat anything. I like anything but things with orange. Also, I do not like Reese's whatevers. Also, no Oreo stuff either other than Oreos themselves with no cream please. 

Savory: I am picky when it comes to these foods. I do not like romaine lettuce. Also I do not like things with curry. It is too musky for me and I do not appreciate the smell. Oh! Mexican foods too. I like fried foods kinda, but not fries. I only like Vegan nuggets and other types of fries like yucca and sweet potato. I love pasta and noodles, but oh gosh no rice. I know I know. I am Korean but I do not like rice. 

Snacking: My all time favorite snacks are chips and popcorn. I used to not like potato chips, but kettle chips are soooo good. Dirty Chips Maui Onion or Funky Fusion are the best. Please just try them. I also love Rite Aid brand Kettle popcorn sweetened with Splenda. I also love Angry Bird gummies. I love all gummies in general. They are so delicious! However, I am picky when it comes to the textures and flavor of some gummies.

- fave: Angry bird, Life Savor, character fruit snacks, Welch's 

- not fave: Jolly Rancher, Haribo

Cooking: I love cooking because I get to experiment with food and such, but I am more of a baker. I used to bake whenever my dad and mom made me stressed. That means every day. Then, I got a job at a bakery and gained 15 lbs. I also stopped baking cause I did not want to deal with all baked goods even at home. 

Eating problem source: The source to my eating problem is my job. I keep eating and eating because I cannot smoke at work. I am so stressed at work that I need to eat to calm myself down and not pass out from all the work they make me do. I lose the weight during the week and gain it all back during the weekend. Let me tell you, I need a new job. 

Solution: Meditation? Moderation? More Exercise? Eat less. I realized that if I deprive myself of some foods I like, I will not crave it. The key is the get satisfaction or fullness without the calories.